will i always wonder?

Sophie has had some crazy virus all week. Some vomiting, sore throat, bloody noses (not sure it that is related or not), and mostly just MISERABLE! For the first few days, there were really no other symptoms except whining, crying and crankiness. The last few weeks have been a little hectic with my sister moving and our room makeovers making room for one more. She just hasn't been herself. In the back of my head there are always questions about if she is experiencing some residual trauma from her first 14 months of life. I don't know if that ever goes away. Will I always wonder?